Not so much a story as cry for help

This girl knows about me and in the begining of our relationship was so cool with inviting a guy over so that i can get all dolled up and i could be the naughty woman in the bedroom while he fucked me. She was so cool she didn’t mind me wearing nighties to bed, or from time to time use a vibrator on my while i came. Over the years she has bought me makeup, outfits, shoes, and even a strapon once. I have no desire to hurt her in the process, i just don’t know what to do.

I tried talking to her about it.
Can we not go back to an open relationship, or just have a guy come over once a week?
What if you get a boyfriend and i get a boyfriend but we still come home to each other every night?
If you don’t want to have sex with me, then please let me find a guy who would have sex with me so u don’t have to.
I will do whatever you want in exchange for letting me transition. “no”
Can we not live together as lesbians? Are you not going to be attracted to me with breasts? “No & no”

So those were some conversations we had that didn’t always end well.
Early I tried moving out twice and both times i got talked into coming back.

So knowing all that past, this is what i would be willing to do.
I will relocate to another area or state, just not too big of a city, don’t think i would enjoy that.
I have alot of skills that could use in any job i could possibly get, computers, networking, web design, photography, videography, sales, and marketing, graphic design, i even have mechanical repair skills if needed.
I would prefer to get a job or find work that would allow me to dress in female clothes.
Not having any money and needing a place to live, i would be willing to have sex with landlord in exchange for a room / home. That would include blowjobs and anal penetration (of me, as i’m a bottom) and handjobs.
I can cook some dishes, but would learn to cook more if that is expected of me, and im 100% with cleaning as i enjoy the classical “womenly duties” as they say, so long as i’m treated and accepted as a woman.