Friday 1pm came and I was out of the house and driving to the park. I particularly like this area because just across the road is some overgrown wooded areas where nobody but us closets go – not even dog walkers!
There are several good places, but my favourite is a small grassy enclosure where the sun shines and nobody would find you unless they knew it or were looking for it. This is where I planned to take him. So much for plans!
Earlier in the day I had gone to two separate drugstores and bought KY in one and condoms in another, just in case he wanted to finger fuck me or fully fuck me. I had washed my self as thoroughly as I could so I knew I was clean. I was wearing a pair of cargo shorts made of light fabric, a T shirt and sandals. And nothing else. I could be naked in less than ten seconds.
I thought about him cumming in my mouth and having to swallow. I had never swallowed any cum before, choosing to take it in my mouth and then spit it out. I'm not shy or squeamish about it, just liked to keep too much jizz clear of my digestive tract.
No, the truth was I was waiting for a man who made me swallow – that I would have no choice about it, even within the confines of any role play. I would have to want to swallow and would have to submit myself to it. This is what gave me a raging hard on driving to the rendezvous.
But alongside that thought was the dream of his cock. Like most submissives, I dream of cock in my mouth. But it's not only that – it's the thought that someone will make me suck their cock – will taunt and tease me with it, making me beg for it, beg to have it in my willing mouth, beg for them to shoot their long streamers of cum over my face, in my mouth. And of course, having them push it into my mouth to the back of my mouth ad making me choke. I know the noise of choking will turn a dom on and that in turn spurs me on.
But it's more than that – the dom's cock is just the focus, the centrepiece for us subs. Yes for sure, it's the part of our dom's anatomy that we most revere and worship, but it's their attitude that makes the difference. The attitude that says "you don't matter – what matters is my satisfaction and my pleasure.
