HELPLESS TO MY CRAVING FOR BLACK COCK

For some reason, I get So submissive around Black Alpha men. I start getting nervous and flustered like some whitegirls get when they're around a guy they like and wanna get together with... and I just get fascinated with the whole moment! Maybe it's because I'm just like those girls. I guess I like Big Tall Alpha Men and want them inside me! Mmmmmm. Hard Black cock! Big strong hands on me. Bulging muscles... the smell of Black cock and balls on my face and lips. their tongues in my mouth! I love it! I can't get enough! to think I was straight before this. Well mostly. I still feel embarrassed picturing myself doing what I do, But I want it! I crave it! There is No better sex in the world to me now!
I start thinking about what I'm doing and what these guys are going to do to me! About how I used to be a normal guy who loved checkin'-out hot, nasty girls at the bars and watching vanilla, guy-on-girl porn. Jump ahead a few years and now I have become that "nasty girl!" but definitely NOT vanilla! So. Here I am. I'm in this hotel room. Getting ready in the bathroom shaving myself smooth. Dressing up in the sluttiest outfit I could find. I've already spent way over $7000 on my new hobby, but as you can probably tell. I'm an ALL IN kinda guy, Ah. Girl. Whatever! With some 6'5" Hung Black guy I met online and five other Black men, he invited me to party with him in my room. I'm anticipating being in the middle of another gangbang! They will be violating me and treating me like a whore you see on hardcore, filthy porn sites! Fucking me like a girl! Fucking the man outta me! Smirking at me Because I am a small, inferior, white guy willing to submit to a bunch of horny, hard, Black, Guys! Excited to take their huge cocks inside me! Literally begging them to fuck me bareback so I can feel them cum deep inside me, Asking them to brutally throatfuck me deeply and to hold my head forcefully against them when they are ready to cum so their cock will be all the way down my throat when they Blow their load of Babby Juice! Wanting their approval that I'm worthy of getting fucked by a group of superior Black bulls like themselves They just look down at me and laugh then offer me another hit off the pipe.